I am reflecting on a busy week exactly one decade ago when a tiny miracle was anxious to join the party. I was exhausted-excited-energized and in awe of the miracle of and promise of your existence. If there is still an internet and blogger when this beloved one is floating through cyberspace some day and find this, I hope they know I love them more than words can say. I really do.
Honestly, I could not have imagined
That you would send my heart
Into a total frenzy, I was seasoned,
I had already held a tiny burrito that week, yet
You took my breath away
Even before my baby so proudly placed you
In my arms and into my heart.
I knew at that moment
I was holding the future,
An already adored miracle
Although I could not imagine
Watching you grow. so anxious
To crawl, walk, explore, so busy with
Boxes, blocks, living, and loving.
Sometimes, you still lean in
Accepting a side-hug briefly
Acknowledging I am still
Taller, for now,
Sometimes, you still share
Thinking, worries, concerns,
As I reflect on how you've grown
From toddler to gasp, ten,
Knowing there are no boundaries
To my love for you.
Sometimes, I forget and refer
To you by that toddler name
Remembering the
Damp curls permanently
Burrowed into my heart while
Sharing Snuggle Puppy, Little Blue Truck
On repeat.
These days, I pray for this not-so-little one
Loved today and every day
As the journey becomes
More complex and exciting
Beyond my wildest imagination,
The future
In your hands
But also
In my heart.
4 comments:
What a lovely heart-felt, tender poem - a gift. Thank you for sharing!
What a beautiful, personal tribute to being a grandma. There are so many thoughts expressed that resonate with my grandma heart... and now great-grandma heart. Thanks for sharing.
This poem makes me think of my own experience with my niece and nephew now (16 and 20, respectively) and how time goes so fast and they change so much. It's like the line from Modern Family where Jay Pritchet says you can't miss them too much because in a heartbeat they become some new version of themselves for you to get to know and love and be in awe of.
What a beautiful heartfelt post. So much love here. <3
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